| To tell or not to tell about a relapse??? |
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confusedgirl
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Posted: 29 Dec 2009 11:18 am |
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Hello, I am struggling with the idea of telling everyone I have relapsed, particularly my BF. I have put him through the ringer. Before I went into treatment I was aware that he thought of me as deceitful, a liar, and manipulative. He was right, I can't begrudge him on that count. I know this got to him so much he had lost respect for me and could not trust me at all. He has considered leaving me. Further, he saw the ED as being my first priority. He had expressed being jelous of the ED because it always won over my desire to function and be there for him. Again, he was right. One would think that would have inspired me enough to get through IP and come home and stay on the right path. However, I have relapsed and have returned to my deceitful ways: Hiding a scale I was not supposed to by in the first place and hiding over the counter diet pills.
I don't know what to do about this. The guilt is killing me on the inside. He is not the understanding type and I feel we will get in such a fight because he will blame me. Also, he will ask me what am I going to do about it and do I want to get better or not? I don't know the answers to those questions and if I tell him I don't know he will get furious with me.
Any advice?
peace
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