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WaistWatcher
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Posted: 25 Jan 2006 11:50 am |
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| i have a very unhealthy relationship with food, it's my drug of choice. i use to love sitting in front of the tv late at night when everyone else was asleep and mindlessly eat. i looked forward to it more than sex and food was my best friend. long story short, last march i hit 195 lbs and was so depressed to the point i was ruining my marriage. my husband volunteered for his second deployment behind my back to get away from our life. i decided enough was enough, i wanted my life back, so i went to my doctor and he put me on a strict diet and exercise program. by the time my husband came home in june on his first r&r i weighed 170 lbs. i was so excited with myself and proud. long story short again, found out he was having an affair, but i didn't turn to food i stuck it out with a consoler instead. we decide to work on our marriage. he goes off to iraq and i'm sticking to my new healthy life style, seeing a consoler and husband and i are talking more than we had in the past few years. life seems great and things are turning around. in december he comes home on his second r&r i weigh in at 155 lbs. he is more impressed with my new attitude than my weight loss. i'm happy, outgoing, fun and more talkative than in my formal depressed mode. over the holidays i gained 10 lbs. and i seem to be stuck at 165 lbs. my goal is 130 by june when my husband returns home for good. i am having trouble getting back on the wagon. i'm grumpy, depressed and have pms like you wouldn't believe. i know i'm over stressed and really don't know how to let go and relax without food. is this how life will always be? a struggle with food, i'm so tired of thinking about food and my weight.
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Peter
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Posted: 25 Jan 2006 04:05 pm |
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I wasn't sure if I should move this to the Success forum or the Help I'm Stuck forum!
Congratulations on the weight you've lost and the progress you've made, and don't forget about it!
I suspect we will never look at food like a normal person. (Though now most "normal" people are overweight so I'm not sure that's a good goal!) But you will find that you will change and grow.
I used to be so obsessed with things that I would weigh myself seven times a day. (I was asked to count when I went for help.) I could tell you stories about food by the hour, but the most laughable thing I ever did was rationing my daily snack of trail mix. I would eat it on the way home, and allow myself a few nuts or whatever with every mile I drove.
I am happy to say that I am no longer so obsessed with food. Perhaps now I am equally obsessed with this website... but as I say, life changes. Take care of yourself today and tomorrow will take care of itself.
Just my two cents,
Peter
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Be A Cow
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Posted: 25 Jan 2006 07:17 pm |
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I used to pretend the night-time calories weren't happening :) Until I realized they were and that started a whole new issue with food for me. And holidays are rarely nice to anyone--good luck for continued success :)
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KICKIN_IT_IN_MI
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Posted: 25 Jan 2006 11:48 pm |
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Well I say congratulations on stopping your original weight at 195, I didn't see the light until I was 200.5 pounds!
We all have slips now and then, just concentrate on what you have accomplished so far and move forward. Try to remember the great feeling you get when you reach each herdle(sp?).
Been there, done that, with food and those personal issues. keep in mind that you are not alone in your daily battles, sound off on this web site for all to read and get inspired either by reading your message or trying to help you with it.
Most of all think of the Hottie that you are, do this for you not anyone else. If it pleases others well that is an added bonus but be nice to yourself first.
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WaistWatcher
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Posted: 26 Jan 2006 12:11 am |
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| thx everyone, i'm going to stop concentrating on the weight gain and just get back into the exercise and healthy eating routine i was on. i done stumping my feet about not being able to eat what i want. just wish i could stop thinking about food. i just refuse to become the fat me again.
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LattesMom
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Posted: 4 May 2006 12:14 am |
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I know it has been a long time since you posted, but I am so hoping that you are doing well and are happy. Food was my drug of choice as well, but not for today and hopefully not for a lot of "future todays".
Walking really helps me when I'm grumpy, depressed, or need to relax! Getting out there is hard when I feel those ways, but once I get out it is literally a breath of fresh air!!
Keep hanging in there!
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miss katz
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Posted: 8 Feb 2007 08:09 am |
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Take care of yourself today and tomorrow will take care of itself.
Thanks Peter, for those words. They moved me.
I know how you feel WaistWatcher (funny name:) I lost weight and then gained 10lbs. and got scared of gaining more and got sick and tired of dieting. But it's a good thing you caught yourself early before gaining more weight. Right now I'm barely maintaining, but I'm hoping writing about it will help me see things in a more positive light. I've lost and regained about 10lbs. like three times since I lost alot of weight. I was around the same starting weight as you. I just think, I don't want to undo all my hard work. I don't want to have to do this over and over again and face the skin problems that come with it. Age-ing, sagging, stretchmarks, I have enough of that already, I don't want to do this to myself. The song Unfaithful by Rhianna comes to mind right now. "I don't want to do this anymore". I guess in huge way I am being unfaithful to myself and my plan of what I want to look like, and my plan to treat myself with respect and my body with love.
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fsahurie
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Posted: 12 Feb 2007 11:27 pm |
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Peter wrote:
I am happy to say that I am no longer so obsessed with food.
How were you able to overcome this unobsession with food?I try not to think about food so much but it gets to me deeply?!?
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Peter
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Posted: 18 Feb 2007 05:22 am |
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I spend 14 hours a day working on this website. Maybe I don't have time! 
I wish there were a simple answer to that. At one time I had to go to many OA meetings every week and work with my sponsor daily just to keep going. I was so obsessed with food that I don't think I can put it in words.
I guess it just got better over time. Certainly, as evidenced by this website, my mind is still on the subject of diet and weight loss.
I used to have a friend that was an alcoholic and then just stopped. Her reason was a simple one... it just stopped working for her.
When I think of what I ate from sunrise to sundown (and before and after!) I can't imagine doing that now. I got a rush out of it and now it would just make me feel stuffed.
I wish I had a simple answer that would tell everyone what to do NOW to get over it. But I guess the answer is that I did what I had to do to survive and over time just kept getting better. That's why in the Tutorial I say you need to do what you need to do today -- counting calories or whatever -- but don't worry about having to do it for the rest of your life.
Peter
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