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bristarr18
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Posted: 11 Jan 2011 05:00 pm |
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Hello everyone,
My name is Britney and I'm 20 years young..my story is so common in todays world yet I often find myself feeling so alone...Growing up I have always been on the "healthier" side of the scale when I was younger all my girlfriends were always wearing cute clothes and fashoinable skirts and I always got stuck wearing loose jeans and baggy T-shirts, all my friends were always aloud to eat endless amounts of pizza, and candy and would continuosly drink soda like it was water without any consiquenses me on the other hand would just look at these foods and gain weight.. Every since I can remember I've been on a diet when I was just in the THIRD GRADE my mom, a petite 110 pound women decided to give up on the "baby weight" theory and introduced me to the atkins diet..I didn't even know how to spell the word "calorie" much less know what is was and how it affected my phisical appearance...Growing up with a mom like mine was extreamly difficult at times the constant dieting and new weight loss skeem's I was forced to try throughout the years definately strained our relationship...Once I started junior highschool I discovered that it was easy to not eat the healthy food choices that my mother always selected for me by the end of the eighth grade I sky rocketed to a stiff 165 pounds and let me just say it wasn't going anywhere...Mom and I argued constantly about weight and clothes and what I could and couldn't eat and how I looked she would often say to me "why do you insist on rebelling?" This always amoung other comments would hurt my feelings..so to make myself feel better I ate and Ate and ATE!!! By the time highschool started I was rockin' a hefty 230 pound frame by this time I discovered makeup and I learned that if applied correctly people would be forced to look at my face instead of my body I would often have classmates, teacher's, friends, and even strangers tell me how I had "such a BEAUTIFUL FACE" for a while I was satisfied with this comment I was getting positive feedback people liked how I did my hair and makeup and befriended me I thought for once people were finally taking the time to get to know me intead of guessing my weight.. the satisfaction didn't last long after hearing how pretty my face was I started to self consiously pick this simple comment apart over and over again I would think about how I had nothing going for me except for my "pretty face" during my sophmore year in highschool I discovered my "funny bone" I would constently joke about how fat I was and how lazy I was how bad I ate anything I could think of to break myself down because I wanted to be the one to make a joke about myself before someone else did instead of people laughing at me I felt as if they were laughing with me...I barried my pain in my jokes and for a while it worked....when I turned 16 I got a job at a grocery store where I live I continued to work full time and decided to go to a alternitive highschool where I was only exspected to show up twice a week for just one hour no structure and the convienance of bad food at my fingertips spiked another weight gain I rised to a plump 260 pounds by the age 17....I would often hear friends tell me that I didn't look as much as I really weighed... and I belived them I graduated highschool in 2008 and as the valid victorian I was exspected to give a speech in witch I did...after graduation I recived a video of the ceramony and I watched it with some friends as they watched the video viewing their succsess I was BAFFELED at what I seen a big FAT blob of failure walked up to the podieum a proceeded to give a speech that "FAT" blob was...me.. ashamed disgusted and disappointed I turned the video off and tried to figure out how I got to be so BIG and not even be aware of my own body image...from that moment on I decided that it was time to change still young and unaware I did not knw how to go about healthy weight loss..to embarresed to ask for help I went on numerous yo yo diets where I woud loose 10 pound n gained 20...I was alone a decided to give up in college studying nursing I became very aware of the human body and how it works when I was offered a position at a hospital I gladly excepted...not knowing that I would have to constantly monitor what other people ate...I would feel my patients confusion when me of all people a 278 pound girl would tell them that they had to eat heathier...I often considered extreame measures like suergry to loose the weight once and for all...instead something else came up and this will sound silly but a couple months ago I had to get every kids nightmare yes I had to get "BRACES"... instantly I had to change my diet I was no longer able to drink soda or eat candy I wasn't evenaloud to chew gum at first this was sooo hard but once it all got out of my system and the craving for soda was gone I decided to take it a step further and drink nothing but waster and the occasional vitamin water...instanly I saw results my clothes were getting looser and my skin even clearer....and that's when it bit me the "modivation bug"...the first week of december I started taking an appitite supresent called "phetermine" and I noticed it working right away I could go all day without eating I don't ever feel hungry it gives me soo much energy that I for the first time WANT to exercise in less then 6 weeks I've shedded 22 pounds and counting the results have been amazing every week that I check in I'm ctually excited to get weighed for the first time in my life I'm loosing weight for me and I finally have the confidence that its going to take to conquer the scale...
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bristarr18
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Posted: 13 Jan 2011 01:50 pm |
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 so its been about 6 weeks and I've worked hard very hard eating healthy and working out and this morning I weighed myself I started out at 269 this morning I am 247 I never thought that I would last long enough to se positive resaults and now it jus makes me want to keep going my new mini goal Is to loose 48 pounds jus so I can be under tht 200 mark but I would like to eventually be between 160 and 180...this is so awsome and makes me feel great...
Sometimes I get scared though that I will loose modivation and give up I also noticed that I'm like ocd when it comes to weighing myself I seriously weigh myself 30-50 times a day is anyone else do this how can I stop its so discouraging at times and I know its abnormal...
Any tips??
Always ~B..
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grangers710
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Posted: 13 Jan 2011 04:10 pm |
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| that many times a day!? That's gonna drive you insane! I only weigh in once a week so that I dont become obsessed as I use to do it everyday. My bodyweight can change up to 8 pounds throughout the day and I'm only 150 pounds. I'd say throw out your scale and just take some measurements and follow those instead to keep you motivated. A friend of mine cut a piece of string at 30 inches long and measures their waist with the string. Once the two ends can touch, he knows he's at his goal!
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bristarr18
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Posted: 13 Jan 2011 10:25 pm |
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| Yes!!!that Many times a day its horrible and it gets worse I work in the medical field at a hospital where there are multiple scales available for my obsessive habit..that is a good idea about the string too cuz I use a tape messure and I abuse it as well, if the number I see isn't the number I accept then I go on and remeasure throughout the day with the string there will be no number to see..thank you I'm gonna try that:-)
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Posted: 14 Jan 2011 03:23 am |
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Hi bistarr18,
It is a very good to be active. I hope to keep motivated to the end. My adive to you is not to be in a hurry. The maximum fat you can burn is 2 pounds a week. This means that any weight loss over and above 2 pounds in a week will be mainly muscle or water.?é?á Losing weight should always be regarded as a long term proposition. Quick weight loss?é?á can help you lose weight but will not give you the longer term results.Last edited on 14 Jan 2011 11:50 am by
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CristinaZ
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Posted: 14 Jan 2011 10:29 am |
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whoa! 30-50 times? simply weigh in the morning. weighing in that many times is useless anyway because when you eat, you're naturally going to be heavier so you won't be getting a reliable measurement. don't be in a hurry to lose weight. rapid weight loss isn't healthy. just keep doing what you're doing since it looks effective. ;)
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cportwine
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Posted: 14 Jan 2011 10:51 am |
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I wouldn't say it's abnormal to weigh yourself all the time. I find it to help sometimes. If I am up on the scale then I don't eat as much. But, it can discourage me as well. If I down I eat more and then I gain. So, it works both ways.
Congrats on the weight you have lost already...keep up the hard work and you will see that goal weight in no time.
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Dr.GregEllis
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Posted: 14 Jan 2011 12:48 pm |
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| That's a really good job to lose that much in such a short time. But don't forget like Rezqun said, you shouldn't try to lose much more then 2 pounds a week because it's very hard to try and keep that weight off and water weight lose can be a big contributer to losing that much weight in short periods. Keep at it you're doing great! When it comes to looking at a scale that many times realize the body can fluctuate over 5 pounds a day. Try cutting back, pick one time a day and use that time every day to figure things out and once you get to that point and can manage try cutting back to just once a week. But most of all just keep at it!
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bristarr18
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Posted: 15 Jan 2011 02:44 pm |
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| So I've been trying reaallyyy hard to cut back on weighing myself as often and its not as easy as I thought I'm at work today and I have the scale inside the room that I am in usealy by now I would've weighed at least 10 times today I've only weighed 3 times...the scale is here and I glance at it and in some weird way it takes the edge off knowing that its there if I need to use it....I think my problem is that I've been the "fat girl" my whole life and I've never been on a diet before where even I noticed results so I'm terrified that if I don't constantly weigh myself I mite become lazy and gain the weight back...but I am trying to quit weighing as often I wish that this didn't consume my life but for now it does sadly its a big majority of what I constaantly think about..
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Posted: 16 Jan 2011 01:52 am |
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| I think your worry is a positive mark. So you have to decide to start a weight loss plan. This is actually the best time to make that commitment. Discuss with your physician before engaging any weight loss program.
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Hellrazor
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Posted: 16 Jan 2011 08:11 am |
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When I was losing weight I was the same as you with the scale. After awhile I found it discouraging cause I would see numbers I wasnt happy with even though I knew of the fluctuation. In end I was just doing it once a day and found it more positive . You won't become lazy and slack off cause you are determined right now. So use that as a strength for yourself
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bristarr18
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Posted: 21 Jan 2011 09:53 pm |
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| Ok so its been almost 8 weeks I've lost 31 pounds and I decided it was time to boost my workout sooo I ran faster and longer and I jumped higher I lifted heavier weights thn I useally do I worked out for longer and I worked out hard my legs were soo shaky in a good way and let's just say I've never felt the burn soo bad in my life not even whn I use to eat spicy food tht was bad for me did I ever burn like this ..but I must say the feeling of being able to walk and run for more than 2 minutes before loosing my breath is amazing and the waay people look at me differently is awsome I'm so happy that I'm doing this and I'm so happy its working I'm just preparing myself for that platoe period and I hope that I can and will stay on track...I do wish I had a reliable workout buddy that took getting healthy jus as serious as I do..
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bristarr18
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Posted: 18 Feb 2011 03:21 pm |
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| Hey every1 haven't been on here for a while just wanted to give a quick update on my progres...I've been dieting since november and I've done incredibly well I've now lost 43 pounds in 11 weeks I have been extreamly motivated every since I went out a few weeks ago with my friends and they took pictures of our night out and posted them on facebook when I looked at the pictures online I wanted to cry I was soo proud at what I saw infact I was seeing bones that I never knew I had I saw my jawline for the first time ever and my double chin was compleatly gone it hasn't all been easy and there are many times that I've wanted to just give up and eat a cheeseburger but I come to my sences quickly and realize that a thinner healthier me is what I really want I've cut down my daily food intake only drink water and the occasional diet soda to get rid of the craving I also recently started working out 2 times a day to help me get over the platue period and it helped I love that I can see the phisical differance and I feel really good when people whom I haven't seen in a long time see me and have this big suprised smile on their face that makes everything worth it I wud like to loose another 60 pounds by may and I have a feeling that I'm going to be able to suceed I'm doing so well if I caan do it anyone can!!!!!
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bristarr18
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Posted: 22 Mar 2011 08:32 pm |
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| Since dec 6th I've lost a total of 62lbs now jus wanted 2 update those who have asked me all @ once..I am wrking soo hard and it shows...guess wut....I have callor bones now:-) n for every big person out there u know where I'm commin frm whn I say I can FINALLY cross my legs..the feeling is amazing..I always said 4rm the beginning tht I wanted to loose 80lbs n now tht I'm almost there I wudnt mind being a 140lb twig but we will see as time goes on id like to focus on staying motivated staying positive and stayin healthy!!! I'm doing it and so can every1 else its not easy but its a journey tht has helped feel tht void I used 2 have I'm so proud of wut I've done...gud luk 2 every1 tht is trying to get healthy!!!!
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