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cportwine
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Posted: 19 Mar 2009 07:56 pm |
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I hear ya Midge! You know I have been just killing myself with exercise trying to get this weight thing back under control and it's not working.  Just goes to show ya, that exercise means nothing without the right diet. I can't get the diet down, so I can't get the weight down.
It's so depressing, but then it doesn't stop me from shoving the #%@&! in my mouth either....
I hope you have better luck figuring out yours then I am having....
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mj36
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Posted: 22 Mar 2009 02:14 am |
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| Midge, sorry to hear you are struggling but glad to have you back. I looked back to your starting page, and you have no undone all the work you did! Keep that in mind!! You are still 50 or 60 lbs lower than your start and that is significant and should be remembered!!! In fact, I will tell myself the same thing right now, as I gained back some lost lbs too. Don't beat yourself up too much, just get back into it and move on~
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Posted: 23 Mar 2009 12:57 am |
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I am so so glad to see you back again. Sistah, it sounds like there's been a lot going on. Hang in there and know we are with you. The weather is getting nice, I hope you are getting out walking - or at least thinking about it. Nudge. 
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MidgeH
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Posted: 23 Mar 2009 10:07 am |
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Hi Mol! I have walked at work a couple of times this last week (and plan on doing so again today!). I also did some mall walking this weekend (with the occasional stop for shoes. At least my feet haven't gotten fat again! I can still wear normal widths.)
I haven't really moved forward in the last few days. Haven't moved backwards though either so yeah me!  Oh, not that anyone here would even think of this but Giradelli chocolates now makes a brownie mix that is unbelievably good. Not that I would know or anything.
So another new week. although I want to exercise and am absolutely planning on doing at least my work walks this week it's my eating I need to concentrate on. Boy oh boy. Being so good for so long just makes it shocking now how out of control I was before and am now. Before it was the norm and now I just keep thinking "what am I doing?!" while I'm stuffing my face. I've always said I'm not a binge eater, and I still don't think I am. (Can you call it a binge when you eat 24/7? I think not! It's just emotionally fueled gluttony!). But I need something in my mouth all the time.
And things keep escalating. Take hot chocolate for example. I found myself in starbucks a lot (consequences of the online dating) and since I don't drink coffee I would get the tall hot chocolate, non fat, no whip. 190 cals. A perfectly reasonable treat that could be worked into the day. Now, whenever I leave MMs (yes, we're still together, more on that later) I stop at starbucks on my own and get the venti hot chocolate with whip. Oh, what's that you say? Chocolate sprinkles? Why yes, please. 390 cals.
I had one this morning. Sigh.
I'm trying to compensate with some grapes only for breakfast.
Be aware, take it one day - or maybe one part of the day - at a time. I think that's all I can do right now. Stay off the scale. see when I am in a week.
I have so many motivators - wanting to feel the way I did at 195 (proud of myself and physically comfortable. Not to mention able to wear 14s with ease), wanting to feel beautiful for MM, wanting to look good when I meet his parents (in may. yikes) So why am I fighting it?
Done it before I can do it again. No?
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OnceUpon-A-ThinGirl
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Posted: 23 Mar 2009 06:09 pm |
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| Midge I'm so glad you met MM you seem so happy! It's easy to eat when you're happy. That's why I can't eat now, lol, I'm stressed! Take it one day at a time, and do baby steps. I'm so glad you're back Midge!!
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CrimsonAnimus
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Posted: 24 Mar 2009 12:45 am |
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Hi, Midgie-pie!
Does anyone know exactly how much pressure a pants button can take before becoming an airborne projectile?
Not much! I've broken my share of buttons, along with seams...not too attractive in public. 
I'm glad to see you back, too. Don't beat yourself up too hard - I gained back 47 pounds in a very short period of time (from 219 to 266), so you're a stronger woman than me (I HOPE SO at least.) 
And of course you can do it again! Failure ONLY comes when you give up for good.
Something else (returning your own advice) - don't feel pressured into losing weight again for the sole purpose of impressing somebody else. You and I both have some serious inside work that needs to be done. It doesn't matter what anybody else says - you are beautiful, no matter what the number on the scale says, or what your boyfriend says, or your family says, or what we say, or anybody else. You are worth being healthy, and feeling beautiful, and being proud of yourself - to that end, I wish you all the best.
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MidgeH
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Posted: 24 Mar 2009 10:39 am |
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Hi Nicky! I'm so glad you're back too. Makes me feel better.
So today I'm down a little. Yeah me. The last 6 days have been half junky/half good so I suppose that works right now. I was eating so badly for a few months the moments of healthy eating may be having a big pay off right now but it won't last. Eh. I'll take it.
I know I said I wasn't focusing on the numbers, but this is me. I have to focus on the numbers (hey, it worked last time. I didn't lose that much of my sanity.)
But instead of focusing on the weight I'm just going to focus on the total amount to lose. Well, not total, the amount of weight I need to lose first. This is what I gained, so it needs to be gone again. A reset. Then we'll tackle the next amount. Not really thinking about anything else right now.
Today I had grapes for breakfast. I still try to fold in some ETL stuff into my diet. I think it's sound I just don't think I can live that way 100%.
Yesterday I did my work walk, today I plan on one too (if the weather holds). I keep promising myself I'll workout when I get home from work, but that never works so we'll just see what happens.
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Hisgal
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Posted: 24 Mar 2009 12:32 pm |
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Hi Midge..................welcome back! I'm with ya, dear. After what I gained over the holidays, and didn't get back off yet, I have about the same amount of weight to lose, to get back to the 150's I saw for the son's wedding, almost 2 years ago.
I know how good I felt at that weight, and I want to get back there so bad.........then move on to getting to my goal weight. And I know I don't want to keep gaining, and get back up to 247 lbs.! I have to turn it around!
I'm with you on the exercise.............if I don't get a walk or CURVES in during my lunch break............there's no way it's happening after work! 
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MidgeH
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Posted: 24 Mar 2009 03:24 pm |
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Thanks Hisgal. The holidays do seem to be when I can pinpoint the problem starting. The beast rumbled around thansgiving and came out with a roar starting at xmas and I haven't been able to tame it.
Until now I should say!
Live and learn I guess. I can get off these 27.5 lbs. In fact, I can probably get them off pretty fast if I put my mind to it. But the mind is the problem!
I'm glad to hear someone else is in the same exercise boat as me. I am doing well and getting some exercise in at work though. And I've worked out witht he BF too.
I just got back from my work walk today - in 40 mph wnd gusts! That was a workout!
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cportwine
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Posted: 24 Mar 2009 06:37 pm |
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I think that is when everyone started to struggle. I was having a heck of a time keeping it under control around the holidays. Then the smoke thing, and it all went to he.l.l.
I am glad everyone is back on here and trying to do something about it. I took today off. Starting in hot and heavy tomorrow. I think I just need to eat clean.
I know what you mean about being able to do it fast, if you could just get your mind to do what you want. I can easily talk myself into stuff now. Things I would of never ate before. It's like all my will power went right out the door. I tell myself one minute I am going to eat good all day and the next minute I am shoving cake in my mouth. 
Well, maybe with everyone supporting everyone, we can get some place and get rid of these extra pounds we are all carring around.
Hey Midge are you counting calories? I think I am going to start doing that again. Maybe it's time for me to drag out that stupid eat to live book again. lol
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Posted: 25 Mar 2009 01:46 pm |
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| Yes, you can do it! Love the weight loss ticker, a good visual representation of your journey! Don't give up, just keep trying. Switch back to the nonfat hot chocolate, keep walking at lunch, working your way up on the good food and down on the junk food... I think most of us who are struggling can follow that same formula and hopefully we can collectively get back on track! Glad to see you here again~
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MidgeH
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Posted: 29 Mar 2009 12:46 pm |
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Still here. Still struggling.
What has changed for me? Or I guess the question is really why didn't i change permanently? Apparently last year was an abarition whose residula effects are slowly slipping away from me.
i need a prefect week. 1 week just 1 week. A weeke where I drop a significant amount and detox my body by eating clean.
Just 1 week. that's my motto starting now. Just 1 week.
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OnceUpon-A-ThinGirl
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Posted: 29 Mar 2009 01:00 pm |
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| Midge there is no perfect, just stay in the mind set that no matter what happens your health and body are worth this fight. Practice makes perfect, eventually things will fall into place and it will get easier.
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Posted: 29 Mar 2009 05:46 pm |
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| Midge, there's no use in beating yourself up. I am in the boat with you. I guess what we both have to recognize is that it is a huge challenge to make permanent lifestyle changes (smoking, drinking, gambling, overeating, all hard to break!~). If we slip up, the important thing is to give attention to it and try to figure out other strategies to get back on track and moving forward. Believe me, I have been in reverse for some time now... but I will get back into "drive" no matter how hard I have to try!!
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CrimsonAnimus
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Posted: 1 Apr 2009 12:22 pm |
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How's it going, Midge? Did you get through your 1 week? Just let us know, for better or worse - we're here for you.
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mollymoo24
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Posted: 3 Apr 2009 12:23 am |
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Hiya Midge, just checking in on ya. Yeah, a perfect week sounds great. Even a really good week is probably all you need to get back to feeling more on track. I hope it is going well. You have done it before and you can do it again. 
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MidgeH
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Posted: 3 Apr 2009 04:54 pm |
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Hi Guys, thanks for the messages! I'm still here, just got a lot going on. Something is happening with my diet adled brain. Not sure what, but I might be getting back on track... No time, sorry. I'll be back in a couple of days with an update.
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MidgeH
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Posted: 15 Apr 2009 08:00 pm |
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Well, guess that last message was wrong.
I'm still struggling to get myself back on track. I had a terrible incident today. A woman at work who has been out 6 weeks (baby) came back today and announced "boy! you've put on a lot of weight! What did you stop exercising?"
I am utterly humiliated. She didn't say anything that wasn't true so I guess I'm just mad at myself, but jesus.
i was at once transported back to every weight-related humiliation in my life. I'm very down. It's a horrible feeling, to be fighting back tears at work.
I think I'll just cruise around the site for a while, to see if I can't draw some inspiration from you guys.
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Hisgal
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Posted: 15 Apr 2009 08:18 pm |
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| Hi Midge! You are not alone................I have been struggling too! I got tired of counting calories.............and have been putting on weight But today is day 1 of getting control again! I have to get back into my spring/summer clothes! Have to....have to......have to......have to.................................
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mj36
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Posted: 15 Apr 2009 09:17 pm |
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| Did pregnancy suck the brain out of that mean woman's head? What would make her think that was a helpful thing to say?? However, since it's been said it cannot be "unsaid". So, perhaps you can find a way to channel those cruel words toward your weight loss efforts, instead of letting them beat you down. I'm fighting the same weight gain and struggles you are, and if someone said that to me I would have been so angry AND hurt, I probably would have opened my mouth and said something mean!
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cportwine
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Posted: 15 Apr 2009 11:07 pm |
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mj36 wrote: Did pregnancy suck the brain out of that mean woman's head? What would make her think that was a helpful thing to say?? However, since it's been said it cannot be "unsaid". So, perhaps you can find a way to channel those cruel words toward your weight loss efforts, instead of letting them beat you down. I'm fighting the same weight gain and struggles you are, and if someone said that to me I would have been so angry AND hurt, I probably would have opened my mouth and said something mean!
I think the reason the mean women said that was maybe to distract away from her own weight gain and probably not much loss since having her child.
That would be my guess, cause seriously who would say something like that. Unless, she is a skinny b.it.ch.....then we shall throw stones at her.... lol
ps: great to have you guys back...
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CrimsonAnimus
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Posted: 15 Apr 2009 11:27 pm |
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Midge, I'm so sorry. I agree with Cindy - people usually do that because of their own insecurities.
Don't let it get you down - you are beautiful, regardless of your weight. I know you'll get back on track, though. We're here for you!
Hugs and kisses,
Nick
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MidgeH
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Posted: 16 Apr 2009 05:10 pm |
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Thanks guys.
She's maybe 3 lbs heavier then pre pregnancy.
It's not the first tactless thing she's said to me, something about me sets her off. I suspect she's a closet fatty hater. There are lots of them out there.
I'm trying to make it a positive motivator, but that's a pretty impossible thing to do. I'm still feeling off and it's affecting my thinking too much.
Today has been a weird day. So far so good with the eating (grapes, fiber bar, large salad w/vinegar, newton crisps - have you guys tried these? Like crispy fig newtons only berry and 100 cals, i only wish they would add fiber to them.) So far 680 cals. i think I'll have fish and veggies for dinner.
I also did my work walk. I might do a little strength tonight when I get home. MM might be coming over (that's one of those things I'm trying not to let her comment effect. A "maybe I'll be over, I'll see how I'm feeling" becomes "You're too fat and I'm trying to figure out how to leave you" in my head. Which I know is dumb. Or maybe it's not.  ) but a little later so I can lift a little while my fish bakes.
On top of everything I have a preliminary phone meeting about a new job and I don't think it went to well. I blathered. Imagine that. Too bad 'cuz I was REALLY interested in it.
One good thing - my friend just asked me to lunch tomorrow and I'm panicked. Why is that good? Because that's what happned last year everytime I was going to go out. I didn't want to eat that food! So it's a good panicked that I hope will keep me in line.
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CrimsonAnimus
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Posted: 16 Apr 2009 05:22 pm |
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Yeah, there are plenty of "fat haters" out there. It bothers me when they say things out of "concern", but it's so blatantly obvious that they mean otherwise.
I have had Newton crisps, and they are good, but they are also very processed, so I try to stay away from them.
I let comments get to me sometimes, too. I was chatting online with this one guy a few months ago, and we were talking about swimming. I told him that I still refused to take my shirt off, even at the pool, because I wanted to spare the people. He responded, "Well, I'm sure they appreciate it." It hit me a bit hard - it was an honest response, which was good, but it still bummed me out for a little bit. It's like I want confirmation that I'm fat, but when I receive it, it's a bit hard to swallow. Try not to dwell on it too long - your brain has so many other important things to do.
Glad to see you back on track.
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MidgeH
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Posted: 17 Apr 2009 11:06 am |
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Yesterday was just awful. Not food wise, with the exception of a heaping tablespoon of peanut butter in the evening it was pretty perfect in that aspect.
I don't want to have to be so emotionally distraught just to eat well so heres to today being better. Ok so far on eating. Grapes and a fiber bar. Of course it's only 9am .
I've decided I don't give a gnats #%@&! about whether something is processed or not. Yes I eat fruits and veggies and hope to have a diet based on mostly that - because I like them - but I am so sick and tired of worrying about what is in something and having to settle for those dry kashi bars instead. I refuse to really worry about it anymore. It's about getting me through the day right now.
Luckily my friend had to cancel lunch. Well postpone it. I don't feel in control today so that is a good thing. Instead I can get my salad and have a walk in the nice 70 degree weather.
I'm trying to get a grip. I meet MMs parents in 6 weeks. i want to be back under 200 by then. Tall order. But possible. I just have to get over myself.
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cportwine
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Posted: 17 Apr 2009 12:10 pm |
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MidgeH wrote:
I just have to get over myself.
lol, don't we all!
I totally agree with you on the processed stuff. Sometimes it just makes it to hard to diet. I think if it's low in fat or calories then your good to go. After you get some weight off and feel more stable. Then you can worry about what is in a certain food and what isn't. Baby steps......
Keep it going....you can do this. You are just fighting with yourself to much. Relax take a breath and get back to the basics.
~ lol, I have allot of room to talk with my fat pic on the refrigerator.... We all do what we have to...
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MidgeH
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Posted: 17 Apr 2009 03:50 pm |
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Thanks Cindy. You're absolutely right.
Just a checking in for myself. I'm HUNGRY so I'm typing instead of eating.
Today I have had:
Grapes - 230
Fiber 1 bar - 120
Salad (iceberg -ick, but it's what they had - onion, mushroom, tomatoes, a couple of sliced beets, broccoli, raisins, bacos, vinegar) - 300 cals
Newton Crisps - 100
Approx. 16g of fiber.
Thats 750 for the day so far. Jesus it adds up. Why am I hungry? Is it that stupid iceberg lettuce? I know the fact that its like 99% water isn't bad for you, but it doesn't have any substance! Or maybe it's all in my head. Who knows.
Did my work walk. It's 1.75 miles. Not a bad work day workout. Tomorrow I'll be working out with the BF. He keeps dropping hints about my needing to workout more and lose weight. Not like mean woman, i think he's trying to be supportive. but I don't like it none the less.
The truth hurts you know.
It is weird isn't it? That at my highest weight no one whould have dared say anything to me, but for some reason now everyone seems to think they hae the right to commetn on my weight. Maybe I just notice it more now.
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CrimsonAnimus
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Posted: 17 Apr 2009 04:39 pm |
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I agree with Cindy about the baby steps. Just focus now on staying on track, and go from there. Truthfully, even for me, with the healthy food I eat, a little bit of processed food from time to time probably wouldn't hurt me. The body is pretty efficient, as long as it's not too laden down.
Cindy...I've thought about putting a fat pic on the fridge, too. I haven't, mainly because I know the family would have quite a fit. Many people wouldn't agree with that type of reinforcement, but I say, "Whatever works to keep us motivated."
Midgie-pie...your B/F knows you're trying to do right, doesn't he? And yet he still makes those comments. That almost sounds to me like, "You're doing well, but it's just not enough." Of course, I don't know the whole situation, and I might be overanalyzing, but many guys are just too visual for their own good.
Stay strong, Midge. We're here when you need to vent.
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MidgeH
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Posted: 17 Apr 2009 04:51 pm |
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your B/F knows you're trying to do right, doesn't he? And yet he still makes those comments. That almost sounds to me like, "You're doing well, but it's just not enough."
I think it's more of a "I've noticed you haven't been doing well and are eating like a mad woman and in just 4 months you look different then the woman I took out for new years so I'll try and motivate you". I'm just too fragile right now to take it. I'm screaming at myself in my head everyday (when I'm not rationizing away what I'm doing) so motivation definately reads as judgment right now. I'm the one causing any problems here. Me.
ETA: had one of those fiber one drink packets to see if it would help the hunger pangs. Eh. i guess it did a little. 10 more grams fo fiber for the day though! I'm trying to do a minimum of 25 a day. I may not be worrying about processed food but I''m compensating by getting plenty of fiber.
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Posted: 18 Apr 2009 05:45 pm |
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Midge, I noticed there wasn't much protein in your menu when you mentioned being hungry. I find that I can eat 750 cals including some reduced fat cheese or lean meet, or maybe an egg, and I am OK, but if I eat more carbs, fruits, etc w/o the protein- even if I eat the same cals, I am still hungry. Maybe adding egg white (@ only 20 cals per egg) would help with feeling fuller as your body takes more time to digest it. Good advice, which I should take myself!
I do think that there is a tendency to be more sensitive toward comments when you are feeling overwhelmed and struggling with the issue already. We tend to ascribe motives to the speaker that have to do with our own feelings, not with the message he/she is trying to send. Yesterday my son had a friend over, along with the friend's sister. This girl has said I am like an extra mother to her, I drove them to school for a year or more, and she comes to me with problems... and she said to me that I have floppy skin on my arms. It hurt terribly, mostly because it was right. She didn't mean to hurt my feelings, she was just making an observation... but boy, my first reaction was hurt, the second was anger. It's hard to hear things, true or not, without picking ourselves and our efforts totally to pieces.
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MidgeH
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Posted: 18 Apr 2009 07:33 pm |
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You're right MJ. I'm trying to get better about the whole thing, last week was just such a mental blow...
And you are also right, I have been low on protein. We must be in sync because I was just thinking I should hard boil some eggs. (pretty much the only way I like whites only)
Yesterday was a perfect day, today is turning out pretty much the same way. So yea me.
Emotionally I feel like I'm beginning to pull out of my funk. Partially because I think the BF is wondering who this emotional crazy lady is. I don't want to be ECL. I don't like her. So I'm trying to turn it around.
We'll see how it goes.
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Posted: 19 Apr 2009 12:07 pm |
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| ECL... nope, don't want to be her! Sounds like you are refocusing on yourself and your goals, and your guy sounds like he can be a source of support. I think the weight loss process is so full of those emotional ups and downs because it is really hard work, it can be discouraging, and there's no "right way" to diet. It can be very overwhelming! Just keep that in mind and figure out good ways to relieve stress that are healthy.
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OnceUpon-A-ThinGirl
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Posted: 19 Apr 2009 07:33 pm |
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I'm so bad about getting enough protien too, it's hard, especially when you're not a big meat eater like me!
It's okay to be sensitive Midge, just don't go over-board about it, let him know, "I'm really trying, I really appreciate support, but I'm way over-sensitive right now." Since I've lost weight Midge I am so sensitive and way more aware of how I look. I think it's kind of natural after losing weight to feel that way.
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MidgeH
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Posted: 20 Apr 2009 03:43 pm |
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You're right Once. And I'm working on it. I've always been hypersensitive (hence the reason most people think I'm funny. It's one of those defensive things, I make fun of myself A LOT) and it's a big reason why I have the weight to lose in the first place.
The weekend went fine. I've had 4 "perfect" days in a row and am working on 5. So far so good. (A perfect day isn't so much about eating lots of raw veggies and nothing else. It's a combo of eating reduced cals, having some things that are really good for me and not having a food freak out. I had a big 'ole scoop of peanut butter yesterday. More than I "should" have? Probably. But I didn't resort to 10 candy bars and/or beating myself - or someone- else up over a fat craving. I also had fruit, raw veggies and baked fish yesterday. And I exercised. So it was a perfect day.)
I'm feeling better. Having a short stretch of time when you feel in control - or maybe just surviving being out of control - goes a long way.
I have a lot to work on though. I know. I can't imagine I was much fun to be around these last few days. God I felt low . Hate that. I am a 38 year old single woman who has been doing everything for herself and on her own for a very long time. But for some reason in many ways I am a needy, clingy, bitchy, kinda pathetic mess  . I hate being any of those things because what are all of them synonymous with? Fear. Yes, I am a big old scaredy cat  . Ugh. Gotta change that.
Food log for today:
Grapes - 230 cals
Salad - 255 cals
Fiber One Bar - 140 cals
minor pigout  - life saver mints (!?) unknown cals. Why I love these things I do not know but the are all gone. thank god.
Exercise so far - Work walk (30min)
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Posted: 20 Apr 2009 04:28 pm |
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I understand the mentality of not going overboard, and considering it to be a good day. It's all about maintaining some level of control.
Wow...38 years old. You probably hear this all the time, but you do not look 38 at all. I would definitely place you in the 20's.
Midge, don't forget that you cannot effectively give out to others unless there is something in you to give. You have to take care of yourself, physically, mentally, and emotionally. If you don't, then the people around you will feel it. Maybe not immediately, but it will catch up to you.
Like you, I'm also very independent. However (and I speak to myself also, when I say this), life is about shared experiences. I want to be able to leave this world knowing that it was someone how better because I was here. I don't expect to change the world, but I'd like to think that I helped. You've made much larger strides than me with getting out of your comfort zone, and I know you'll overcome this. Just take it a day at a time.
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MidgeH
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Posted: 20 Apr 2009 08:55 pm |
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Wow...38 years old. You probably hear this all the time, but you do not look 38 at all. I would definitely place you in the 20's.
Will you marry me?
I like your picture, smiley.
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Posted: 20 Apr 2009 09:45 pm |
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| Introspection and reflection = always good to help you understand motivations! I like your description of balance. FFO (food freak out) can become new CPH shorthand, since lots of us need a term...
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OnceUpon-A-ThinGirl
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Posted: 20 Apr 2009 09:57 pm |
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| I agree you look so young Midge!
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Posted: 20 Apr 2009 11:18 pm |
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Hi Midge! I wish I'd noticed a few days ago that you were baa-aack! Great to see you posting regularly again. To echo MJ, lean protein has been a huge key to my success and keeps me from getting hungry. Fruit, like an apple or grapes, makes me hungry because of the natural sugars (carbs) in it.
I try to go heavy on protein at breakfast and lunch and don't get hungry throughout the day at all.
I am a big old scaredy cat too Midge, afraid of everything. Somehow once in a while I manage to 'get my brave on' and wonderful things happen. Just remember how you got up the courage to start dating and you met MM.
And  to feeling in control again. Keep it up!! Hugs!!!
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Posted: 21 Apr 2009 01:13 am |
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MidgeH wroteWill you marry me?
Yes, as long as you feed me, and tell me you love me every day without fail.
MidgeH wroteI like your picture, smiley.
You know why I'm smiling now? It's because you just offered to adopt me.
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MidgeH
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Posted: 21 Apr 2009 12:57 pm |
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That's no problem Nick. I love you!
Well today is a big day. A big disappointment or a big kick in the pants or a big whatever I do not know.
It?óÔé¼Ôäós been 1 year since I started trying to get my physical self together. Let?óÔé¼Ôäós review.
Beginning weight - 281.
Lowest weight ?óÔé¼ÔÇ£ 194 (Nov. 2008)
Current weight ?óÔé¼ÔÇ£ 221
Ughhhhhhhhhhh!!!!
Ok, the bad news is obvious. The good news?
- I am 60lbs lighter than I was a year ago
- I have lost 8lbs in 5 days (I was 229)
- I am feeling a renewed zeal for weightloss
- I started out a size 24/26. I wear a 16 (mostly) right now.
- I have a love life
Lots to work on. O, lordy, what is the next year gonna bring? Maybe this is the year I REALLY figure out. Last year was just a test run. I hope.
Arggh.
Anyway?óÔé¼?ª Food today so far: 3 egg whites (52 cals) and a fiber drink mix (20cals). Not much I know, but this morning has been crazy at work so I?óÔé¼Ôäóm lucky I got that in. The good news is that the egg whites seem to hold me a little better then the fruit. I am very hungry now though. But I?óÔé¼Ôäóll be having an early lunch and a work walk so?óÔé¼?ª.
Last edited on 21 Apr 2009 12:58 pm by MidgeH
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CrimsonAnimus
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Posted: 21 Apr 2009 04:15 pm |
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Yeah, I've read from a lot of people on here that eggs help to satisfy their hunger. Before I started this, eggs had that effect on me, too. Of course, I would eat at least 5 at a time, with milk and cheese added.
I love eggs, but struggle a bit just eating the whites. Regardless, I choose to avoid them until I have my cholesterol tested. The dietary cholesterol in eggs actually does not have too significant of an effect on blood cholesterol, but eggs have a decent bit of saturated fat, also, which has more of an effect.
Midge, that's great you're listing what you have accomplished. I think that's a step in the right direction. It's easy to get so caught up in our failures that we don't take time to remember our successes. I think I might do that in my diary today, too.
Here's to great times in this year and beyond! 
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OnceUpon-A-ThinGirl
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Posted: 21 Apr 2009 05:43 pm |
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| Last year was just your first step, this year is more practice. This is a lifestyle change, sometimes we slip up, sometimes we're losing and sometimes we're gaining. Don't be too hard on yourself Midge, just keep on, that's all you can do.
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cportwine
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Posted: 21 Apr 2009 09:15 pm |
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I agree, I think it is great that you wrote down all that you have accomplished. I think I will do the same. I have really been struggling with the idea of me being able to even make it through this year without gaining a bunch of weight back or going off the deep end drinking or smoking. I am trying so hard to get my life together and I can tell that you are too. It helps to know I am not the only one out there with a little self improvement plan, lol.
Your doing great! 8lbs already! I can't even manage 1lb. So, don't you get down on yourself, be proud. 
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MidgeH
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Posted: 21 Apr 2009 09:22 pm |
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Eggs for some reason send my choleserol through the roof. Even on Crestor. And of course I love them. The whites I only like hardboiled or poached. 3 seems to do it.
Just to catch up fo the day. Did my work walk. Only 1000 cals. That's a bad habit I don't want to do again. need to get my cals up to 1200 or 1400 a day. I'm an all or nothing sort of girl.
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cportwine
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Posted: 22 Apr 2009 08:04 am |
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I can't do the egg whites by themselves. So, I always mixed a bunch of veggies or something with them. Makes them more filling also. Also, spices, spices, spices! Makes all the difference... 
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mj36
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Posted: 23 Apr 2009 12:07 am |
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Yum, egg whites... yup, I must be a freak, because I love 'em. I use my little pampered chef egg slicer and dice them up and toss them on a salad. W/o the yoke, they are a pretty healthy source of protein. Lucky for me, my cholesterol hovers between 120-150 because of this med I take to bind the bile in my tummy due to a freak disorder... anyway, it used to be a cholesterol med so it helps me in that area too haha.
I love that you listed out accomplishments. It is good to reflect rather than bash ourselves and what we haven't yet gotten done. I saw a few others do it in their diaries, and now you've got my mind working...
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MidgeH
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Posted: 23 Apr 2009 10:19 am |
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Yesterday I ended the day at about 1400 cals. Lots of veggies and now the peanut butter is gone. Thank goodness.
It's been 1 week since I got back on the band wagon. Today I weighed 219.5, a drop of 9.5 lbs. I am probably the only person in the world who could be disappointed in that. I was hoping for 10 or 11. Oh, #%@&!, who am I kidding? I was hoping to wake up this morning magically weighing 195.
But it's a good beginning. I really should take my own advice. I have a work friend who always comes to me to talk about weight loss and what she is doing and the other day she said "I'm trying to just set myself small specific goals and meet each of them" as opposed to looking at the larger issue. and I said 'that's great - as long as the goals aren't a specific weight." At which point she looked startled - cause she was talking about weight - and so I said "setting small goals of 'I'm gonna increase my cardio by 15 mins' or 'I'm going to eat veggies at breakfast' are great because you are absolutely in control of them. But you can't control when your body will decide to let the lbs drop. You could kill yourself for weeks and lose nothing then all of a sudden you lose 5lbs for no apparent reason."
See - I'm a smart girl! Why can't I listen to myself?!
Oh! Oh! in other news - Mean Lady gave notice yesterday! She's gone in 2 weeks. I may regret it when I'm having to shoulder her entire job for no more money and no thanks but for now? Woo Hoo!
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Posted: 23 Apr 2009 11:54 pm |
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| Hehehe... bye-bye mean girl... that's karma- you are nice so nice things happen to you, Midge. Oh, and by the way... listen to Midge, she's smart... that's one of those "notes to self" for ya so you remember to take your own amazingly sound, helpful, high-quality advice.
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MidgeH
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Posted: 24 Apr 2009 11:45 am |
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Sometimes karma is great, MJ.
Ended yesterday at 1250 cals + my work walk. At 216 cals (egg whites, tomato, fiber bar, fiber drink) so far today. I'm going out to lunch and will be spending a lot of calories there. Even being concientious about decisions it's easy to have a 750 cal lunch when you go somewhere nice.
Back with more later!
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