| bulimic for 4 years, 2 months and 25 days |
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Katty17
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Posted: 10 Jun 2009 06:26 pm |
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I dislike how someone can say that we all have some type of eating disorder....no you dont...
Unless you actually have had a Real eating disorder you have no clue what we go trough every day. its annoying. especially how therapists can say "i understand how you feel" and stuff like that!! and "people with eating disorders are stupid why dont they just stop if they are suffering so much?" (my friend said that, i guess she was trying to get me to admit i had one.) its hard to quit. Its a real mental block, its VERY difficult for a bulimic, like me, so get over it by themselves.
((sorry :( im just really emotional right now im so tired of being bulimic))
I started out as a bulimic in 8th grade when one day this guy came up to me and said i was fat... being 5"0 and weighing 126 i thought he was right. so the day after, on Mothers Day i decided id had enough of being fat and ugly. I thought I would just do it untill i got down to a normal weight then just stop. I had no idea id have to deal with it all the way through highschool... i quickly went from 126 to only 98 pounds. but ofcoarse after my boyfriend dumped me....it all came back and i went to 128 again... now im back to 105. Im just getting so tired of having to throw up (sorry if that sounds grose) average 2-3 times a day for YEARS. I even sometimes put in my retainer all day so i wont get the urge to eat.
I want to tell my mom that i am but every time i try i just cant find the words. It suprises me that she hasnt noticed the sudden weight loss and asked any questions. Even my friends have called me up at 11pm and asked if im alright or if anythings wrong with me. Ive even looked up councelors and meetings i could go to. but im so scared.....ive already been taken to the hospital once (i missed my highschool ring day which is very important to a highschooler, and valentines day with my closest friends) because my body started failing because of lack of nutrition this year. thats time ill never get back...and its all because in 8th grade some guy i didnt even know told me 2 little words that might have almost killed me... i dont know what to do, i dont want to have to deal with this when i go off to college in a year.
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whitegremlin
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Posted: 11 Jul 2009 08:52 pm |
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| i can say i know where your coming from.. do you honestly want to stop? thats the real question.. do you know the dangers to your body? to your mind? to your future? i have been "clean/sober from bulimia" for 3 yrs.. when i had internal bleeding and suffered from major ulcers of my stomach and esophagus.. the acid that comes up that frequently causes your insides to basically burn your insides from the inside out. i hope you are grossed out and you should be.. thats the truth.. you have to tell your family.. dont worry about what they think of you, its eating you up not telling them and dangerous to your body.. i had to stop.. i had no choice, cold turkey- my drs put me on so many antiemetics, the pills that make you almost impossibe to vomit,, i gained soooo much weight and im now fighting everyday to get healthy for me and my children.. please tell someone..
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ZoeBlue
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Posted: 13 Sep 2009 02:30 pm |
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You really have to get some help. Bulimia is a much more serious disease than we like to believe it is. All that stuff about heart attacks and esophageal rupture happens to "other people" right? Wrong.
I started purging at age 13. At age 27 I suffered an esophageal rupture and was put into the ICU. I am lucky to be alive. Many people who rupture their esophagus die. If you don't seek medical treatment immediately the mortality rate of esophageal rupture is almost 100%. I had excellent care and I went the the ER immediately, which most likely why I did not get sepsis. But I am still incredibly lucky to be here. I have two children who need me more than the bulimia needed me. I have only purged on occaision over the last 3 years (I'm 30 now). I got into a great programme (I'm still in it actually) and I couldn't have done it without the help.
If you ever feel an excruciating pain in your chest as if you've been pierced with an arrow after vomiting, go to the ER right away. This is exactly what it felt like when I ruptutured my esophagus.
Don't be afraid to ask for help, before you get to this stage. Early intervention is the best intervention. This disease is very serious and deadly. Good luck.
Last edited on 13 Sep 2009 02:39 pm by ZoeBlue
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worriedmom
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Posted: 29 Mar 2010 07:40 pm |
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Hi,
I am a mother of a child who has been hospitalized 4 times, for her Eating Disorder. First Anorexia and now bulimic for almost 3 1/2 years. I noticed you mentioned medication to help with your vomiting. What was the name of this? I am desperately trying to save my daughter who is now 19 and has refused treatment, therapy, etc. since she turned 18. Do you have any suggestions or recommendations?
Very Desperate Mom
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