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April27
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Posted: 28 Sep 2008 04:39 pm |
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Did you ever get to a point where you feel competely overhwhelmed?
I can fret and plan and obsess over calories all day long and exercise for hours on end but it's the simplest things that I can not bring myself to do. Just the thought of cleaning or performing normal, everyday things that I get exhausted thinking about.
I know what I have to get done as a functioning member of society. I go to my classes everyday, I have a job teaching dance that I love but I am exhausted. All I can manage to have energy for and focus on is restricting, planning, exercising, over and over and over.
How did you get out of this rut? I've managed to lose some more weight. I am 5'8" and now weigh 116, which is still  but at least I'm losing. I just need some advice or motivation on how do everything else in my life..
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jessalynne
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Posted: 28 Sep 2008 07:53 pm |
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April, I'm sure this isn't what you want to hear...but I'm going to be annoying and go ahead and say that at 5'8" and 116, you are not fat, you are actually underweight, which may be contributing to your exhaustion!
Maybe you should try not focusing on calories anymore. Just keep only healthy food around, eat when you need to, and don't put the added stress on yourself of counting everything. I do that every once in awhile - I'm on a "non-diet" phase right now, because I just can't constantly deal with the strain on top of school, and a job, and everything else life throws at us.
Good luck, and I hope you feel better soon! 
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Straylight
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Posted: 29 Sep 2008 12:19 am |
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That's what I was going to say... also, could be some depression in there?
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1seekspie
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Posted: 11 Oct 2008 01:50 pm |
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My gosh! If you feel like a pig at 5'8 and 116 pounds, I sure as heck feel like a porker at 5'3 and 112!!!!
OYVEY! Be glad you don't know me personally. I'd be the girl that tries to inject lard into your food and "tempt you" with brownies and all kinds of little goodies.
I'm sorry that you feel overwhelmed, though. Really. I'm simply very envious because I'm short, and I've gained weight in the past couple of months and therefore feel bad when some one that sounds like they're at the perfect level is complaining!
Be happy you are where you are....
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Straylight
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Posted: 12 Oct 2008 12:01 am |
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haha dude I have all yall beat!
i am the prize pig at 5'3" and 151 pounds!
oink oink my good man!
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1seekspie
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Posted: 12 Oct 2008 01:43 am |
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Ah, jeeze...Now I feel like a hippocrite.
Don't worry, though....at the rate my cravings are going, I'll be a whale in no time...
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Straylight
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Posted: 14 Oct 2008 01:26 pm |
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no it's fine, i enjoy a good laugh at myself actually!
the prize pig, come on that was hilarious!
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TheThinOne
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Posted: 23 Oct 2008 01:36 pm |
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"How did you get out of this rut? I've managed to lose some more weight. I am 5'8" and now weigh 116, which is still but at least I'm losing. I just need some advice or motivation on how do everything else in my life.."
Hi. Thank you so much for your share! I am new to this forum, but certainly not new to CO/B/Ax. I was drawn to your last sentence.."I am 5'8 and weigh 116..." you then alluded to your being fat via the pig symbol. Yikes, I've been there.
I have broken eyes! I had been 213 pounds 10 years ago for my c/o disorder and I am 5'3. I wore size 22. When I got into recovery for the laxatives, bingeing, etc. I lost 90 pounds. I worked out every day and had an athlete's body.
I went from size 18-22 to a size 2! I still thought I was fat. I have been abstinent for the last 10 years and for me "abstinence" means abstaining from behaviors such as bulimia, anorexia and c/o. I was lucky I found a free program. Once I joined, the obsession with food stopped, but the obsession with weight continued.
It was not until I had done some serious spiritual house cleaning that the obsession with myself (weight) stopped. My problem according to this program, was that as a food addict, I am selfish and self-centered. Being totally obsessed with myself is a form of grandiosity, which really is low self esteem flipped over. I either think the world centers around ME because I'M so important that I block everyone out and can only focus on ME, or I try to escape what issues need to be dealt with in my life by obsessing over my weight, a guy, etc.
When I put my obsession down, I have to look at what is on my plate (no pun intended). Issues such as my finances, debt, whatever it is I'm not willing to look at in my life because it is so uncomfortable, I will obsess about ANYTHING to not feel the uncomfortable feelings that come with FACING MYSELF....
You sound like such a sweetheart and my heart goes out to you. And by no means, at 5'8, 116 pounds are you a pig or fat!
Lots of Love and Healing to You
Shalisha
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