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Chance
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| Joined: | 3 Mar 2007 |
| Location: | USA |
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Posted: 3 Mar 2007 09:31 pm |
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Well,
Being new (to any forum) I am really nervous. I have also never admitted I have a problem, but as I want to get better.....here goes.
I do not deal well with anxiety. I have insomia and dependent on what is causing the anxiety, I will either starve myself (my stomach is so notty I just cannot eat for a few days) or I will over eat with the most terrible foods possible. I will go to the store buy a few (box) of donuts and I salivate just thinking of how good it feels. Then afterwards or even during, I beat myself up and tell myself how terrible I am for having no self control. I tried using coffee and gum to supress my appetite because I am afraid of pills, but my mind still tells me, I should have what it takes inside me to control my weight.
Four years ago I was 230lbs. I lost it all in 6 months do to a divorce (stress unable to eat) down to 155. I still thought I was overwieght and ugly and always had the goal of 140. I think this was part of my downfall in combination with the fast weightloss.
Since then, I have a good relatinship and I am a happy 200lbs. Except, I still abuse food and I still think I am horribel to look upon. Although I fake it and tell everyone I am beautiful, they get testy and preach if I tell them my realistic veiw of my fat body.
Okay, more to the point...I need help, I am finaly willing to admit I cannot do it alone. I tried going to a school counslor, but they are back logged for weeks and have not called me back for another appointment. Being a college, there are more pressing cases then mine, I am not endanger of killing myself. So I sit here sleep deprived and waiting for answers. I read the tuturial, all very exciting, except it does not help with the whole dealing with control...or non-ability to control.
Sorry I wrote a book, but I have never admitted the truth and it really needed to come out...
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fsahurie
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Posted: 3 Mar 2007 10:54 pm |
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Hi Chance,
Welcome to the forums! I suggest you see a specialist that deals with these kind of problems.Not to scare you in anyway, but this can be life threatening if taken to the limit, hopefully youll come here for support and will deal with these problems.I wish you good luck, and remember, we are all here because we have eating disorders, so theres no need to feel bad or sorry about yourself, take care of yourself and please post back, cheers!!!
Felipe
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fsahurie
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Posted: 3 Mar 2007 10:56 pm |
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| Sorry for the double post, but Chance, if you feel the need, please, PM me at anytime!!!
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AinBuffalo
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Posted: 21 Mar 2007 07:26 pm |
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Congratulations on admitting that you have a problem. It takes a lot of guts to do that. I believe you suffer from depression and depression often coincides with anxiety. There are trained counselors NOT at school that are out there. I suggest you call your insurance company and find out what therapists/counselor they have available- and many counselors have a sliding scale if cost is a concern.
Depression can mask any number of things, you use Food to cope with it. Until then, take it day by day. You will be okay. Remember-day-by-day.
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